Thursday, October 25, 2007♥
Current mood: Messy.

My mood swings are very bad lately. sorry if i offended anyone.
jus get agitated over lil tings easily.
n its not work. at least i tink its not due to wk. mayb partly la.
which explains for my bad complexion.
mayb feelin fugly made it all worse.
smtimes i tink its cos i share too much.
smtimes tellin some tings over n over really devalues the kinda msg im tryin to put across.
so if im reluctant to share certain tings i jus hope i get some kinda understanding
its tired to repeat certain tings more than 5 times
n i dun wish to do so as well cos when i reflect on wad ive said at the end of the day
those words feel so cheap.

prolly gettin too much attention.
i wana retreat back into my own 'michael angelo' shell.

y shld i put my own misery onto other pple's shoulders n brains.
n make myself seem lik a pitiful bitch.
i dun wish to b lik tt.

so. fr now on. me. is gonna make pple happy.
hehehz entertain pple. tts who i really wanna b :)))


i love carrie. yay.
Carrie Underwood - So Small

What you got if you aint got love?
The kind that you just wanna give away
It's okay to open up
Go ahead and let the light shine through
I know it's hard on a rainy day
You wanna shut the world out
And just be left alone
Don't run out on your faith
Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
What you've been out there searching for forever,Is in your hands
When you figure out love is all that matters, after all
It sure makes everything else Seem so small
It's so easy to get lost inside
A problem that seems so big, at the time
It's like a river that's so wide
It swallows you whole
While you're sittin round thinking about what you can't change
And worryin' about all the wrong things
Time's flying by, moving so fast
You better make it count, cause you can't get it back
Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
What you've been out there searchin for forever Is in your hands
Oh, When you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else Seem so small
Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
What you've been out there searchin for forever Is in your hands
Oh, When you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
Oh it sure makes everything else Seem so small
12:33 AM♥ Tuesday, October 23, 2007♥
a note-- the root of all troubles.
mayb not the root. more of the trigger,
i duno whether i shld feel happy when i received it.
i mean tks for the compliments
but tks for putting me in a position
dun wish to get involved in any politics.
jus wanna serve my time there n hopefully get to bid goodbye

a wrong sms-- the solution to my worries
ive owaes lamented on how lil "my mother" cared for me
tot she nva did
tot she was owaes busy w her wk
n no matter how free i appeared to b
she nva helped me out of my misery
even thou she's jus Behind.
well at least she bothered to advise me
aft i foolishly sent her the msg tt she wasnt supposed to read
my gdness. im such an idiot.
n i recently found out tt the person has been observin me fr behind.
which is scary.
but i cldnt care less la.
if being free is wrong then jus gimme more tings to do. urgh.
Patience, aye patience.

now emo n cr's words seem to make perfect sense.
nobody shld b trusted in the office
the 3rd sms prolly jus hit me hard tt it's the real world im residing in
sighz y cant pple jus b sincerely concerned
scorpios dun trust easily
but i guess my shield is wearing off over the yrs man.
perhaps havin a shield on is jus tiring.
tts y i havent been wearing it.
i guess it's time to put it back on.

guys are friggin jerks.
stop oversteppin ur limits
b4 i step on u, my fren.
1:06 AM♥ Monday, October 22, 2007♥
May the 9 bros unite!!



Dinner @ dian xiao er.
the dessert was damn weird. tasted lik sprite. n i cant believe tt idiot called the waiters/waitresses xiao er!! throw face!! my gdness....

acc to bala this pic looks lik a wedding shot. haa

we werent supposed to drink tt nite.. but smhow ended up @ Harry's. had chivas!.. not as strong as the margaritas @ iguana prolly cos of the ice.. but fr the foto below.. u can tell tt my face is red. urgh. hate it.
















wanted to capture our wkplace fr here but.. failed.














hehehehz this foto is really damn funny. Broken Wrist n her famous pose!!! i hope she nva sees this. if not....... im dead.

12:01 AM♥ Saturday, October 13, 2007♥
lost.
tts how i feel everyday at wk.
i duno wth im doin there. seriously.
the learning process is really too s.l.o.w.
yes, they emphasized tt we mus haf patience.
but c'mon not to such an extent.
i mean u're seriously testin my patience!!
not tt i haf much left.
everytime when i start stoning at wk..
i tink of That letter n when im gonna submit it.
but there's oredi some kind of attachment to the 9 bros.
mayb u might tink tt it's silly to stay cos of the pple
wells prolly u dun understand
but all of us (cept for erhem) can hit it off really well!
n a few of us esp.
so everyday the oni hr i enjoy is lunch. n partytime fris. how sad.

speaking of the 9 bros..
went to iguana yest n i nearly cmi aft downing 2 cups of margaritas.
weak rite!..
haha i cant even walk properly lor.. head lik abit spinning.
til dainty n JE have to b my walking stick.
cant imagine tt i actually agreed to let them play mj at my place till 430am!
cant imagine i can last tt long too.
haaa considering the time tt i snuggle into my cosy bed every nite. ha. im really a pig man. duno wads wrong w me.
n i finally found another shinhwa lover!! muahaha
n work is really affectin our lives man.
everything we say has to relate to the terms we learnt at wk. ha.
lik sts. special treatment system.
i tink everyone has some kinda sts in themselves.
i realise i do.
i prolly have mentioned to some
there're really many classes of frens
n some are jus more 'special' than the rest.
i duno how my heart filters them into the category.
but its a kinda feelin a get when im w em.
n obviously they get special treatment.
haa as everyone noes. im a biased person.
i mean i can openly say tt i prefer kido boys to kido girls.. ha.

okay la dun tok so much rubbish le.
got a movie to catch. cant believe i actually agreed to watch resident evil. my god.
n i hope the crabs @defu are gd!! yummy!! :)
freak late again!! ciao!
12:00 PM♥ Sunday, October 07, 2007♥
Fairies gathering!


back @white sands- hk cafe. aft gg all the way to 'fisherman's village' to discover tt it's not there anymore!!! :(

tt helena jus Cant open her eyes!










Hehz shopping alone really killllllssssss. haha ok, fine. sy, ur point is proven. fullstop. haha. i spent lik 600 bucks in 2 days!! my gosh.

the major culprit- my new big face black strap watch!! finally found it.
it's really gigantic. but i lik~~
also bot a dress (the one n oni piece in my wardrobe.), a pair of wking pants, a bag n a pretty hairband. argh!! my money!!!

5:13 PM♥ Wednesday, October 03, 2007♥
the ten bros are re-united today!
sigh.. no more mass 2h lunch aft today... since training is officially over n im supposed to do Real wk. oh man. dread it. time passes so quickly. Gonna miss SO Many tings. mainly the cheap entertainment tt i derive fr the slacking sessions. haa. n im practically the oni living person @ my island. so there's nobody to tok to. my mentor is friggin busy, even more so aft her promotion.. sigh. im alone!! gd tings nva last man.. seriously. jus when new bros n sistas come into my life.. sigh.
cant wait for the bloody weekend to come. hehe gonna try gowns w sis!! so interesting!! haa n tt stupid noddy had to comment tt no gowns will fit me. actually tt might jus b the case man.. erps. lookin forward to the next 10 brothers drinking sess (erm definitely not the drinking part.)

waiting for fotoss fr some mama lorrr. will post v soon! happy wkin/ studyin, pals!! :)
11:23 PM♥